everybody's been talking about resolutions. i'll throw some of mine out there...
- exercise at least once a week (which is going to be hard, believe you me)
- cook more
- read the entirety of greenfield's this year (might as well set lofty goals...haha)
so there you go. reflecting on the last year, it's kind of amazing to see where i am now. i can't believe intern year is half over, and i guess i'm not as bad as i think i am. i hope by now the other residents feel that they can trust me, at least with the little things. i've become more confident in my "this shit is bad" sense, ha. i do need to work on my confidence level and speak more authoritatively. i do need to become more efficient...i know i have, but it's still a long road. i refuse to compromise thoroughness, and i won't apologize for that.
right now H and i are looking at possibly buying a house vs. renting...it's weird thinking about "grown up" things. a part of me is afraid to do anything until i get my ABSITE score back...and oh yeah that test is jan 28. puke. (after i finish this blog entry i'll be doing a practice test to scare myself.)
i'm happy where i am. sure, it sucks to not see friends and family, or to not see H in 36+ hours at a time, but i do enjoy my job. it sucks also when you have edema around your ankles after a long day, and i should probably invest in some support hose while i'm thinking about it. and my back hurts a lot, but the free massages through my insurance help out! it super sucks when a chief calls you out on a mistake or your omission of important facts, but you just have to realize they want you to become a "bad ass" to quote the words of one of my chiefs. (Frylime, i don't want you to become a good surgeon, i want you to be a bad ass!) ok then! i'm trying! really hard!
so excuse me for a bit while i go cram some ABSITE. i'll try to update more and be better about commenting.